What a week this has been! Sorry to disappear for a couple of days, but I have a good reason…. I am ready to start sharing some of the excitement in my life right now…..and of course….you can’t go around sharing exciting news with cyberspace until you’ve shared that news with key people in the real world!
I’ve mentioned that I’ve had a hard time blogging in recent weeks. I’ve been behind in writing my blog and reading your blogs. For one, I have have felt like blogging my meals just pales in significance to everything else right now. Everything I have wanted to talk about has been off limits! I have also been using my “recreational” computer time looking at non-blog-related sites and forums. All of that has equaled less time and enthusiasm for blogging. So I am sharing this news now, in part, because I just can’t keep up with half-hearted blog posts!
Let me take you back a few weeks… This was February 1st:

After hyperventilating a bit, I went right to the doctor where they confirmed the news with a blood test. Yeah!! Shear excitement for…..maybe 2 days. Then the panic set in! The doctor didn’t want to see me until 8 weeks (which is standard procedure), but that felt like an eternity. I have spent the month of February in a constant state of anxiety, spurred on by those informative, yet terrifying baby websites and message boards. Everyday, I would read about several women who had miscarried that day and I would become even more panicked. And my fear wasn’t totally out in left field…..after all, 20% of pregnancies end in miscarriage. And since I am programmed to be a worrier anyway, my mind went right there!
I have never wanted to be sick and uncomfortable so much in all my life! But with the exception of a bloated belly, a couple days when I have felt a little queasy in the evenings, and just an overall sluggishness, I have felt great! I’ve been working out most days, and generally feeling…..not pregnant. Which of course, freaked me out! Please, God, let me throw up!!
On Thursday, we had our first doctors appointment and ultrasound. What a horrible week this has been! I didn’t sleep. I couldn’t concentrate. Cramming for Wednesday’s microbiology exam was torchure! I was terrified that they were going to look inside me and see nothing. Afterall, I haven’t had strong symptoms. How could my hormone levels be where they’re supposed to be if I’m not even sick?!
I was literally shaking by the time we walked into the doctor’s office. Unable to sit at home waiting any longer, we left and got to the appointment a bit early. The ultrasound technician must have seen the panic in my eyes because she took us right in. Being early on in this whole adventure, I expected I would be undressing for this ultrasound (those internal ultrasounds are better at picking up early pregnancies). But she just lifted my shirt, rubbed the jelly on my belly, and immediately found this:

That was the best indistinguishable blob I had ever seen! She told me everything looked great and there was a strong heart beat! I felt like I lost 20 pounds instantly! All of that worry just lifted.
The ultrasound was followed by seeing the doctor. This is a new doctor for me, so I was crossing my fingers that I would like her. She was great and took her time explaining everything to me. I have felt rushed before at doctor’s appointments, but she very patiently answered all of my questions. My biggest question was around exercise. It’s a huge part of my life, and I was afraid she would tell me I couldn’t run or sweat. There are guidelines floating about that say not to let your heart rate get above 140 bpm during pregnancy and not to get overheated. I hoped I hadn’t signed on with an “old school” doctor. Without hesitating, she told me that the 140 bpm recommendation is terribly out-dated. After all, heart rate is elevated anyway during pregnancy, so getting to 140bpm doesn’t take a whole lot of activity! She said I could do anything I did before, as long as I felt good and stayed hydrated. The concern is when someone who has never exercised before gets pregnant and thinks “I can’t gain too much weight, I’d better start running!” That’s a problem, I can see that. But she said that my body is used to exercise and the baby will only benefit from the activity.
A healthy baby and a green light to exercise! I was walking on air as we left! I am still worried. I am, as of today, 8 weeks, 3 days. That’s still early, and for the rest of the first trimester, I will still be worried about this little bean. But the doctor said that that just seeing a heart beat betters the odds for a healthy pregnancy, so I feel more hopeful.
We had already shared our news with our parents and siblings when we first found out. But after Thursday we shared the information with the rest of the family and a few friends. Its not something we are going to paste on facebook, but we do want to be able to be openly excited. We also feel like, if something bad did happen, we would want to lean on more people for support. And as far as blogging, I have never been part of a more supportive community!
There are a couple other exciting things on the horizon that I will share with you in the next few days. But that is enough news for now! I have a big chemistry test next week so I will most likely take the rest weekend off of blogging to study. With all of the anxiety over the last couple of weeks, I feel a little behind!
This was a fun post to write! Thank you for reading! Have a wonderful weekend everyone!